Hello, 2018! I’m finally ready for you. Are you ready for me?
Today is no different from any other day except that today I finally feel like writing.
When I logged in here to see when my last post was, I was shocked to see that it was…one, two, three, four, five…FIVE MONTHS AGO!
Apologies to myself (and to you). If I want to call myself a writer, I must show up and do the work. I’ve not posted because my writings not been ‘worthy’ of a post but that’s just the excuse I’ve been feeding myself.
The truth is I lost my muchness. Sometimes that happens to me…
feelings of severe despondency and dejection. “Self-doubt creeps in and that swiftly turns to depression”.
That dreaded word that I hate using to describe myself. But just like Alice, I got through my darkness and my muchness has returned…thank goodness! Phew!
So my secret is out. Sometimes I get sad and my muchness drains out of me but what I’ve learned as I get older is we all have our moments of unwellness and don’t let it define who you really are.
So I ride the dark wave as best as I can. I try my best to do all the “healthy” things and I stop looking at Facebook. I trim my life down to the basic necessities and cut out all the extras (like feeling the need to keep up with my blog), until one day I wake up and I feel like me again. I want to shout from the rooftops…
“I’M BACK BABY!”
So this is just a short post to say Thank you.
Thank you for still following me.
Thank you for your patience and thank you for not giving up on me. The last half of 2017 kicked my butt a little but it didn’t defeat me.